I'm so hard trying to convince myself it doesn't matter, but it's hard, cause in all my life I've been taught that all that matters is school and success.Because I am seen to be capable of that success, failure hits harder when it's due to mere laziness.
But I'm still so tired, utterly tired, that I would rather do nothing. I try to get myself back on track with what I'm supposed to do, and every time I fail miserably in that task.
To be honest, I lack the ambition.